Paul Begadon Poetry

I dont know when,
I dont know how,
I dont know why.
It doesn't matter now.
Because everything
That i once felt
Its all gone now,
All gone to hell.
You've seen me smile?
Well thats because
Behind these eyes
Im out of hope.

I used to be a human once.
I used to feel, i used to love.
The feelins gone,
The mirrors cracked,
And i dont think
They'll ever come back.
Not really alive
I merely exist.
But the worst thing is
That i know all this.
So no ignorance and thus,
No bliss.

Im not sayin that i want to die.
I want to live,
I want a life.
Im just sayin that right now
I cant push on.
Its a bit too much to overcome.

Poet: Paul Begadon